The last post

  I won't be blogging any more here or anywhere else. But I just can't delete this blog. So, its a goodbye.

Totally not living it up

  So, I'm waiting for that perfect moment to GO BACK HOME. In another 2 weeks will be the Raya hols and like crazy I'm waiting to go home. I'm having Algebra test 2 next week and assignments and Physics which I can hardly grasp. I think I'll roll myself into a ball and hop around if I didn't copy Polar Bear's assignment. >.<

  I did the worst thing-bullied my lab partner. I'm always asking him to do everything and... made him mad. =X

  I'm shameless when it comes to copying assignments, getting biscuits(or any kind of food in that matter), taking pictures (posing like Malaysia's next rock-bottom model) and bullying my lab partners.

  About the Polar Bear update... there's this girl called Pineapple that's totally in love with him! Allow the squares to take over triangle! Triangles are too compact for 4 people.

  Oh well.. I need a life! For a start, to get people to ask me why the world isn't square.

The durian cravings

So, before I start...

You guessed it right! I went for durian buffet and it was awesome-until someone burped in the car. GROSS!

  So, since the day I got down for my semester holidays I've been pestering my parents to get me durian. So, my mom got me the one's near my house and it was tasteless. I was not satisfied and showed a sullen face.
 
  Today dad called and went like: 'Lets go SS2 to eat durian.'

  So, my dad is like this 'I'm-totally-against-durian' kind of person so my mom and I ate durian. RM 15 for one person to eat D24 and for Kampung durian is RM9 per person. They'll give you a roll of tissue and there is water provided at a corner.

  What can I say? The flesh was thick and sweet and I felt like vomitting after just a few 'biji' because it was really filling (I regretted eating breakfast). My mom until now still goes like: 'The man at the stall said "RM 15 makan sampai pengsan".'

  So, I've gained more weight since the day I came back! Some fat pics of ma-self.

PS: Durian is awesome until you burp it out!

The difference between big girls and small girls

  My roommate is a big girl-just like me. And the other day, she was telling me how guys actually found big girls dependable and having a gold value to be used. So, at that time, I didn't take her word seriously at all. UNTIL NOW.

  So, there was this guy that kept asking me questions on this and that instead of asking my course mate friend whom very clearly is as smart as me. The difference between us is she is model-skinny and I'm queen-sized mattress. =X So, why can't he ask her instead of me?

  While all the "small girls" get boys to really talk to them (a solid conversation that doesn't include assignments and tutorials), the big girls never. All I get is boys asking me 24-7 about homework and assignments. (Boys are supposed to be better in engineering?) So, I began thinking about what my roommate said and realised boys were constantly asking her about homework and the permission to copy her assignments and project info. Absolutely idiotic.

  Based on how and what I had for dinner today, I don't think I'm ever entering the skinny club. OH WELL!

How it all started

  Okay, so Cheng Yi thinks that the story I wrote was based on how I'm feeling. YES and NO at the same time babe! See, the inspirations I got was from a book I read (Gossip Girl crazily) and recent happenings! Let's start with the happenings first!

  So, as I'm already in University the spread of rumours about people having relationships is a everyday topic to fill in the boring life-especially if you nod your head and sleep in class. Now, we introduce the characters. The first character is my friend, this seriously hot and cute chick, we'll call her Cutie. Next, comes Mr. D and Polar Bear. Mr. D and Polar Bear are best friends. The thing is, they are both in love with the same girl, Cutie. Cutie falls for Mr.D, and leaves Polar Bear in the dumps. Polar Bear, known for his thick fats and everlasting fur, doesn't give up. He still tries his best everyday to woo Cutie.

  BACK TO ME
  How do I get myself into the tangled mess? I was the one who introduced Mr.D to Cutie! There are times I feel I should have introduced Polar Bear to Cutie instead... Oh well, who wants to mess with a bear? Now, feeling guilty, I try to get Polar Bear to be with somebody else (these are the two people I'm trying to push together). But, my efforts so far are proved futile...S.A.D people!

  So, this girl I'm trying to get to be with Polar Bear is another awesome friend of mine. She is super-hot with a model's body and really beautiful. So with me, as usually, things get very very exaggerated! I thought what a combination they would be-totally rocking the whole campus! Another things that makes them meant-to-be is that Polar bear recently officially announced that he needs to lose weight as he is constantly sinking into ice water..BOO! So, this friend of mine can really help him lose weight with therapy and... I don't know-I don't need to lose weight, right?

  So now, I don't know how to push them together, I even thought of their children's names already. Just remember the son's name is really meaningful. The meaning to his name is "Too Full". Please get creative and translate it into Mandarin (tai bao). So, that's the first part.

THE SECOND PART
  There is this really nice senior and I found out through facebook that he has a girlfriend! I had to sing Justin Beiber's 'that should be me'!

  Thinking of all these events, I decided to write the story with it all blended up. The story is from the point of view of Polar Bear.

Goodbye

  It was a hot and humid afternoon where her vision was blurred by sweat that dripped and flowed into her large hazel-brown eyes. The pain was intense and humiliating. She should know better. She watched him eye green-jacket-girl with a desire of unknown boundary and the pain numbed her head. She felt like she had been eaten up from the inside and tears started to leak. Her friend next to her eyed her with beady eyes wearily. 'Too hot, too much sweat.' She referred to her tears.

  The green-jacket-girl ignored the guy staring at her and pretended to study history about civilization with a Calculus book underneath. She leaned her head on the table and closed her eyes. Maybe the pain would go away faster this way. It seemed wrong to fall for her buddy. He was her best friend. And she loved him. With all her soul and heart. And her heart was-breaking. Instead of telling him that she needed him, she was helping them get together. She was passing messages for them, she was telling him things about her-green-jacket-girl. He was happy. He had finally found the love of his life. And green-jacket-girl responded equally with a positive attitude, directly proportional. Where does that leave her? Outside the perfect circle only enough places for two people?

  She sucked in deep as her car arrived and dashed across the road to meet him. Standing in front of him, she was speechless. Finally, she spoke. ' Ian, I'm leaving the country tomorrow to further my studies in Chemistry. Goodbye.' With that, she turned and dashed into the car, her body shaking and choking on tears hard.

  This is for Ginny Lim and Hemlatha. It was inspired by a story I read and the recent happenings.

Happiness that hurt

I was in my dad's car in Malacca and we were having a good time after eating Asam Laksa in Jonker Street and buying forbidden food for beauty queens (or anybody who gives a damn about losing weight). I saw this particular shop that brought back memories deep from the past that haunted me. It was a shop that sold mattresses. Yet, it was special. It reminded me of someone that was once so close to me and now so far. No way this is about a guy. Its about a friend. I miss her (even if she really is evil-evil-evil to the max). There are some people in life you can never get over no matter how time flies and that one person stupidly is her. My first glance made me happy to the core and left a devastating pain later in my heart when I realised the person who shared those experiences with me was no longer there for me.

  I wonder why the world is so unfair.

Everything in life isn't right

    I find it so hard to be a part of something. I hate this feeling. Totally hate this feeling of wanting to be accepted. And yes I don't understand why I'm having this feeling. I've been doing reports over reports with Maths and Add Maths as my main subject. I'm starting to hate numbers. Really. I mean that's what I learn about. Non-stop numbers. Sucks. And I feel like there is no one to depend on and it just makes me feel worst.

Hello Me

  I'm right now in Selangor again. Yes, it feels so freaking good to be home. I love home people.
 
  Maybe you should listen to the pain of going home.

  My friends and I waited for the taxi like for an hour. The taxi guy forgot about us and asked his friend to take us. His friend never appeared for your information. I caught another taxi guy who sent us to the Malacca Central for RM25. Then, we missed the bus by just 6 minutes. We almost boarded a car whose driver said will take us to Selangor for just RM 25 one person. I called my mom and she told me to get the hell out of the car-which I did immediately with the others. Then, we took a bus which charged us RM 22.30 per person. It was soon to know that a boy took the same bus for just RM 12. We felt cheated to the extend I was so annoyed with everything. Watched 'Vampires Suck' on the bus. That movie really sucks.

I need somebody now

  It's a wonder how things change in a wink of an eye.

  This week was my best and worst week in University.

  And I thought life was good. You have no idea how much I want to hug somebody and cry now. I feel like a moron. I'm ashamed of myself.

  I broke my phone last night and I'm phoneless now. I forgot to take money from my parents and I'm kind of considered broke as I can't buy any books I want. I have to go to the bank. But most of all, I guess I'm sad that I can't do electric circuit. I totally suck at it. I never loved Physics in high school and now I'm slacking in it. I should have just given the shop to repair my phone instead of trying to be smart and everything.

  I need somebody now. Hello anyone?

  Today is and shall be the most embarrassing day of the week.

  First, I enter Mr. Zamari's(or is it Zamani?) class where he stresses out the facts of Uni life and how to find stuff online. It took a while but I realise he was saying what I had actually told my PA(PA stands for personally assistant-kidding). The culture-shock stuff. After going to so many schools in my life I still get culture shock-is there anything more impossible? Then, I bumped my head on the toilet bowl(the flushing thingy) and then on the wall where I tried to lean my head. In the Instrument Lab, Mr. Zamari clearly stated that collared T-shirts and no track bottoms were allowed. That was exactly what I was wearing. He also said something about not having your bag on the table-mine was fat and lying there obviously catching attention like a celebrity.

  And later I'll have my first Physics experiment. I wonder if I'll be allowed into the lab. I'm not properly dressed at all. Need more collared T's.

  Gosh, can you believe it? The day is just starting.

  I'm living on bread nowadays with nestum and milk as side dishes.

  What I learned here is you can't change everything. You have to learn other people's ways. You have to let go. letting go hurts but not letting go hurts worst.

Yeah People!

  I was suppose to be in some college doing something that will get me something near to Biology or Chemistry. Well, that's not happening, so I'm doing something with Physics even though I simply dislike it. Its been a week in UTeM and life's not so good. I miss family, toilets are so small, food not good, and I hate the fact that life is going to be full of Maths and Physics. I'm so sick in my heart I need to get a life. Sigh.

The best split is banana split

  The start of the week has made me realise I was far off behind the world. It also made me want to change the flaws I had and make up for mistakes and lost time. It was a romantic yet lonely night that made me ponder on splitting up with people. With absolutely no experience in love, the only relationships that has broken my heart is friendship.

  Having change schools for so many times it seems illegal, I have left so many people behind. Time after time. At the last year of school, everybody finally split up. Hemlatha's doing Sunway, Cheng Yi matriculation in Pahang, Shi Yee in between of Nottingham and awaiting reply from JPA, Hui Jun to America, Sheena in Sunway, Yi Ting for nursing and the others in form 6.

  Looking back, nothing is forever.

  I still remember the time I promised my primary 6 friend how both of us were going to go strong forever after graduation. It never happened. She forgot me, I moved on with life casually. Everyone will get busy, meet new friends, bury the old ones, and just move on.

  Splitting up is really hard. You feel you know that person inside out, and suddenly that person doesn't know you anymore. There will be times where you get insomnia at night and abruptly think of the people in the past and wonder how they are getting on with their lives. You will think of the good times, the bad times, and the moment where both of you didn't want to meet each other for no reason other than because its awkward to dig up old memories.

  I have split up with several friends and at the end of the day, I forget the bad times, the times I got hurt and hurt others in return, and keep the good memories deep in the core of my heart. Till today, the best split I have tasted is banana split.

Birds in cages

She's leaving

  The top picture was taken during form 4 jamuan. The bottom picture was taken before I left JB for Selangor. The girl in the picture will also be leaving just like me. She's going to Pahang to do matriculation. She will most importantly leave her bestie Hemlatha who will simply miss-her-like-crazy and all her Sunway friends whom I don't know. Frankly, I didn't really like her at first, but now I love her. Bon Voyage weirdo!

Name: Lim Cheng Yi

Age: 18

Favourite colour: Green & Purple

Favourite cartoon: Phineas and Ferb

Favourite Movie: Harry Potter

Favourite book: Pride and Prejudice

Favourite artist: Johnny Depp

Favourite food: Ice-cream

What would you do if the guy you hate says he loves you?

I'll be like "What??? Did April Fool's Day come early this year?" And if he seems offended by my accusation I'll say " Errrmmmm... give me a minute" and I'll just walk away and laugh like a total maniac.(Aren't you already one?)

Best moment in life?

Everytime when I'm travelling.

What is your dream?

Hmm...go somewhere in Europe to further my studies and be successful...or maybe later then only I find true love???(I'll find for you!)

One word that describes you: Weird.(Can you and Hemlatha not be the same already?)

 Please please do come for holidays to Malacca! I'll show you around and we could scare off some innocent tourist together! Buy me durian from Pahang.

A picture of Cheng, Hem and me.

Cheng looking sad as she leaves JB.

She forgot to let go

  Once upon a time, there was a little girl who held on too tight to everything in her life. She pretended to be strong even when she wasn't, hoping for a miracle on rainy days. She believed that she would chase her dream, and everything would fall into place. Then, the truth sunk in-her dream wasn't coming true. There was no magic in this Disney-loving world. She had to let go. And made a mistake. She forgot to let go.

  When she finally gave up on her dream, her hope, her believe and the thought that miracles actually happened in life, she decided. She let go. She let go of her heart, which bled silently in the dark.

Destiny

  Gaa Mun called me yesterday evening and we talked for a solid one hour before me being called to have dinner.( My father also had problems with hand phone radiation) She is doing form 6 at our old school. She plans to be a lecturer in Physics and English. I'm going to miss her freaking lot seeing that I will be in Melaka-far far away from her. She is going to be an awesome class monitor for the 2011 Physics class of PBP(1). These pictures were taken at the year of 2010, during Hari Sukan at SMK Pusat Bandar Puchong.


Name: Yap Gaa Mun

Age: 18

Favourite colour: Peach

Favourite cartoon: Spongebob Squarepants

Favourite book: Harry Potter series

Favourite movie: Pirates of the Caribbean

Favourite artist: Anne Hathaway

Favourite food: Sushi

What would you do if a guy says he loves you?
My response to the guy: 'Oh really? Are you sure? Is that a joke?' Then I'd laugh and laugh and laugh and laugh until my stomach hurts. (Poor guy, he must be feeling sorry for himself for falling for a crazy girl)

Best moment in life?
Spending time with family and friends.

What is your dream?
Become a classical music conductor, composer like Beethoven...

One word that describes you?
Fantastic

The reason why I have 'Destiny' as the title of this post is because Gaa Mun believes in destiny.

Sambal Udang

I told the fox:

' The sour grapes taste sweet.'

Trouble

  I'm really good at getting myself in trouble. Really really good. Like joining form 6 for a day and trying to get out of it. I don't believe I have to face the teacher tomorrow. This morning I woke up early, wore uniform, ate breakfast and rushed to school. Halfway through, I turned back. I didn't want to do form 6. I was absolutely positive to the core. I went to school...because...because I felt guilty for leaving stuff halfway like that. But I just couldn't force myself. Why am I always so...mercurial?

Choice

  In the morning a volcano erupted in my house. Mom and dad with me in the middle were lost. Simply lost. I love Biology with Physics as my ultimate enemy. Dad wants me to do engineering, mom supports my decision on Bio stuff. I feel lost. Simply lost.

  Unable to make a perfect decision, I hastily put on my uniform and literally flew to school-without bathing. I went there for form 6. Sounds like a taboo, right? I recycled my white blouse from last year's uniform and a black skirt I bought when I was 14 for a school club. I held a life cockroach in my hand freshly plucked from my so-long-didn't-wear black shoes I bought when I was form 4 for prefect.

  For a week, the form 6 will be having orientation. It pretty much involves being bullied by the upper six. For a start, we were given a briefing by Pn.Normala and the Asst. Principal. Something about how you can fail in form 6 even thought you are a straight A student in form 5. A perfect way to start the day yeah?

  Then, there was this ice-breaking session where I kinda screwed up. We were given odd and even numbers. The odd numbers students had to remember the even number students name and vice verse. After everyone got to know one another, they decided to choose a few lucky ones. As predicted, I was the unlucky one. He asked me a name of the boy from my school. I couldn't answer. My mind was blank. Simply blank like a A4 white paper. He was the boy who studied in my next door class (5A), he was the boy I talked to in the driving school, he was the boy who was really tall with specs that stood out in the crowd. And I didn't know his name. He looked at me. I blinked at him. And I spilled the truth. I don't know his name. He guy holding the mic laughed and asked how I could not know the boy from the same school. I clenched my teeth, not because I was angry, because I was truly embarrassed.

  The day passed with us doing the chicken dance twice and forming groups. We had to prepare a book to get the teachers and seniors(upper 6) signatures. Many are choosing to do the Bio stream instead of Physics. Seeing that, don't you think it would be easier to get a job if you had something to do with Physics like engineering?

  Its tough to make a decision when you love doing something but the other thing you dislike is what that holds opportunities for you. I understand you have to really love something if you want to succeed in it. I wonder how you study something you love and end up frustrated when you can't find the job demand.

   Choices are hard to make. Especially when you are trying really hard not to screw up your life. I'm not doing form 6 by the way. I got upu for engineering. So if my mind decides to face reality, I'll walk towards that direction.

Anugerah Cemerlang 2011

 It's the first time I attended such a function! It was..normal. I wore my Baju Kurung and silver shoes. Yup, the same thing I wore for my JPA. I'm so glad I bought a Baju Kurung. I actually love wearing it. Its super comfy!

  I went with my parents and got the number 36. I went and sat at my place. A plastic chair. I didn't get the booklet they were passing out as my mom took it. So I just sat there with my darling 'Fallen'. Teacher Maulud came over and asked me if I got any scholarships. I shrugged and told him the results were not out yet. Then he asked what I was getting the cert for and I said I didn't know before laughing. He looked at me once and just walked away. I was immediately consumed by embarrassment. How can you get an award not knowing why you were getting it for? I turned to the back and grabbed a girls booklet and streamed the pages to find my name-WRONGLY PRINTED. It was suppose to be Yuan but they smartly put Yuah. And I was getting it for pelajar cemerlang SPM 2010.

  Sitting there with darling(it's a book) I got somehow bored with irritation. So I flew to the back seat and chatted with Li Wen. That's the first time I actually talked to her. She is really nice. A Malay teacher came hushing us, threatening to push us to the back if we didn't zip our lips. Trust me, she was kindly ignored. I mean, you are out of school and still have to get scolded and threatened by teachers. After a few speeches and performances I carefully ignored averting all my attention to the chick next to me, we were all told to line up. I lined up and got ready to receive my prize. I casually talked to an Indian boy in front of me. He asked me if I have ever went to the gym. >.< I said yes of course. He stills does gym. I kept asking him if he was trying to get a hot chick to notice him or something. He said no. Obviously lying. Like I didn't know why boys even waste time to get all those scary muscles like Popeye the Sailor Man.

  So I went on stage, shook hands with some people I don't remember except my principal. Got down, waved goodbye to a few classmates who was leaving and sat down chatting with Gaa Mun and a few others. And then there was food! The tea, mee hoon, curry puff and purple kuih was delicious.

  The horror? In my certificate, my name is still Shu Yuah. Together with the cert comes a Domino's card (I wish it was Haagen-Dazs), two pens, a keychain with the school logo and a small clock. I was disappointed. WHERE IS THE MONEY?

  The best student was Joel Goh from my class with 8A+ and 1A. He is studying at KDU (A-levels) with scholarship. Another good fellow was God-loving Ginsky Chan. I plan to name my future dogs Joel and Ginsky. I want them to be smart, that's why. They proved that you didn't need to be in the first class to score excellence. (We were all classmates from 5B)

  Knowing that no student got 9A+ made me happy. I know its evil, but I was really knocked-in-the-ribs when I didn't get 9A+. A teacher complained saying that the girls were not dressed well, adding that the skirts worn were too short.

  So, that's for all with a message from Cheng Yi who is panicked-stricken for JPA.

How your mood affects the food you eat

Tough foods, like meat, or hard and crunchy foods = Angry

Sugars = Depressed

Soft and sweet foods, like ice-cream = Anxious

Salty foods = Stressed

Fill-you-up-foods, like crackers and pasta = Lonely, sexually frustrated

Anything and everything = Jealous

I want to live on a farm,

with chickens, cows, goats and nothing but green green grass.

Tan Leng+Gaa Mun+Yi Ting+Me= Complete Madness

  So, on Saturday, I went out with Yi Ting Moon, Gazelle Tan Leng and Smarty-pants Gaa Mun. We had a blast! We met up at IOI, at the entrance of Sakae Sushi. I couldn't recognize Gaa Mun. Luckily, there was Yi Ting. It felt so good to finally meet up with them! As usual, Sheena was busy. =Q.. Initially, we wanted to eat at the Little Pantry as suggested but Gaa Mun but it was a bit costly and I didn't really like the food choices. So, we went to Wong Kok Char Chan Ting. The food was average. I give 5 out of 10. We talked and laughed and took pictures(thanks to me and only me).




This is Gaa Mun in baby pink and black tights! She looks fab.

                                       


This is Yi Ting. She wore black T-shirt and jeans. She like black and white.

                                       


They look like sisters.

                          


Gazelle Tan Leng got scared and tried to shield from the horrors of my camera.

                                                 


My food! Ramen with BBQ pork.

                                    


My tiramisu drink!

                                        


Tan leng with her food. same like mine, except its soup.

                                             
                                                     

This is Tan Leng's drink! Something tropical I think. She was throwing away orange peel.

                                                       Yi Ting's food. Seafood pasta.

                                                              Gaa Mun's scallop pasta.

Gaa Mun and Yi Ting ordered the same drink. It's passion fruit drink.

                                                              Yi Ting with her drink!

Gaa Mun in her pose. I kept telling her to open her mouth!



We all agreed it was expensive.

                                      



I'm finally in the picture, clad in pink and black.





Talk about no cameras.

   I wonder if we are ever meeting up again. Yi Ting will be studying at Assunta soon, Tan Leng UTAR, Gaa Mun form 6 and me at T-junction, unable to make any decision. I love you guys!